writing

i'll optimize the UX before i make the transition, but the theme itself makes the UX mediocre idk

2026-11-02 11:37

spent a shit ton tokens refactoring my commander webapp for a wired redesign but it makes it a bit more headache-inducing so idk

2026-11-02 11:36

made progress on my launch lab yesterday, but it's still crucially lacking in data and cross-pattern synthesis

2026-11-02 11:22

stretching makes me feel sovereign

2026-11-02 11:21

stretching makes my body feel like a temple

2026-11-02 11:17

picking up my cross like how the fuck was jesus moving this

2026-10-29 01:07

robot factories, brain chip manufacturing, personal longevity lab, proprietary frontier BCI chain for personal growth

2026-10-29 01:00

they are there to survive

2026-10-29 00:58

warehouse crib, ai data centers

2026-10-29 00:58

why do i have so much hatred against the world it’s because the world is retarded and it can’t be any other way as long as i wanna be something

2026-10-29 00:36

i know better i know so much better

2026-10-29 00:34

if i wasn’t who i am such a pretty thought

2026-10-29 00:34

dont think 14 year old me expected this outcome but he would think that it makes a lot of sense and would be amazed by the vision, though not the execution. I’m doing better than that stuck-in-stagnation dreamer though.

2026-10-29 00:18

i don’t want to be a schizo developper i want to be an mdma angel and spread love

2026-10-29 00:16

let me guide you to a place where no one hurts you, you are safe here with me

2026-10-29 00:14

i’m not closed off to entities but i’m not going to live for the catholic god that’s for sure. need me 50/50 partnerships with the higher entities, even though from a psychological standpoint you’re better off obeying the catholic god since his teachings level up your life

2026-10-29 00:13

don’t need your energy

2026-10-29 00:07

unfortunately for them there’s a mathematical solution to any dilemma in this world

2026-10-29 00:07

hyperindependence*

2026-10-29 00:06

the gods hate me and i hate them back

2026-10-29 00:06

the gods are mad at me because of my hyperindendence and pursuit of godhood and that is why they punish my psyche with so much misery and isolation

2026-10-29 00:04

what a pathetic mask i look like a pimp

2026-10-29 00:02

i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here i’m stuck here stuck on this earth stuck living stuck working nobody in my world nobody in my world nobody in my world

2026-10-29 00:02

need to give myself more credit where it’s due or else people will start assuming i’m as miserable as i make myself out to be internally

2026-10-28 23:57

can only ever feel my heart growing colder

2026-10-28 23:55

need to be dialed in like Terry A Davis, except his project was actually useless software nobody uses which proves leaning into the schizoism isn’t a competitive edge at all

2026-10-28 23:53

the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking and if i don't make it before it rings it's me who's bloqwing up

2026-10-28 20:42

every day bad news

2026-10-28 20:41

bullshit everywhere house of card house of card house of card house of card

2026-10-28 20:41

over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over

2026-10-28 20:41

fuck everything

2026-10-28 19:14

i’m so tired

2026-10-27 18:46

why why do i have to be here

2026-10-27 18:46

i love the internet so much i love the cyberspace so much i love it so much i love it so much

2026-10-27 03:01

talking to a random 40 year old chinese man from some xmpp public lobby i love the internet sm

2026-10-27 02:16

why did i do that

2026-10-26 23:21

once upon a time i would’ve assumed it was a soul connection, and back then it really was. Today? it’s… i don’t know, probably just my own grief?

2026-10-26 23:17

void is strong i feel soothed i don’t want it to go away even if it’s a bit physically painful

2026-10-26 23:17

i b in my bedroom scheming and plotting yo

2026-10-26 22:52

imma have to delete so many tweets before i go public again

2026-10-26 22:45

how disconnected do you have to be to walk away how disconnected do you have to be?

2026-10-26 22:31

why did i do that why did i do that why do i do the things i do

2026-10-26 22:30

why did i do that why did i do that why did i do that why did i do that

2026-10-26 22:29

never been ok and content on a day-to-day. My brothers are bipolar, i probably am too, and it’s among the dozen reasons why ill succeed, but it’s rough

2026-10-26 21:21

i mean i have plan Bs, and i have dozens of paths through. and if all else fails im buying a business and i know how to make money compound but its all plan A. there’s no being ‘okay’ in a normal life, i don’t even know what a normal life is, never had one, never been satisfied

2026-10-26 21:20

literally talking to the feelings in my body i’m actually awakening my schizo genes over this shit

2026-10-26 20:44

im literally going INSANE for this shit i’m LOSING MY SANITY OVER HERE day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day after day

2026-10-26 20:42

been up for years now doing whatever it takes, depriving myself of everything that makes a human whole, grinding in the shadows by my lonesome and i’m still stuck in this shitfuck life

2026-10-26 20:39

just for a bit, perhaps

2026-10-26 01:50

cybercrime hehehe

2026-10-26 01:46

i swear if this account gets exposed before i get to clean it up it’s wraps

2026-10-25 23:47

allowing yourself to give those ideas meaning

2026-10-25 23:42

sometimes i forget about it and im genuinely like no why are you leaving me holy shit bro thank god these are nothing but thoughts without external world manifestions besides these tweet so it literally cannot be considered damaging, besides the long-term compounding effects of

2026-10-25 23:42

antidepressants sound really nice, i don’t care about being vibrant or myself i just want to treat my life like a video game and grind away on my highest roi moves 16 hours a day without despairing

2026-10-25 23:39

when my chest stops hurting i start despairing because the pain makes me feel less lonely 12 year old emo boy lines but i mean it so what can i say

2026-10-25 23:36

wish i had vyvanse and antidepressants and whatever the frontier-level supplementsmaxxers and biomaxxers are taking but im too broke for any of those right now im tired im tired im tired

2026-10-25 23:26

the only notifications i ever get are hustle-related emails, telegram logs from my agents, telegram alerts from apprenticeship groups, chatGPT prompt completion notifications, transactions from my credit cards, and announcements from AI-related discords day after day its just me

2026-10-25 23:15

1.5 years of this bullshit this motherfucking bullshit this BULLLLLLLLSHIT

2026-10-25 23:11

everyday is so gray, every day is so fucking gray dull and empty gotta keep my eyes closed and just keep moving, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again once i have money i won't be depressed again

2026-10-25 23:09

the way up is so lonely

2026-10-25 23:06

KEEP BIDING YOUR TIME MERULOX

2026-10-25 23:05

keep biding your time merulox keep biding your time

2026-10-25 23:05

i can't help but see wrong in all of my previous decisions. could've kept that one apartment, stayed in college, easy life, blablabla stfu merulox what a retarded path that would've been, and dont u remember how bad was the void back then?

2026-10-25 23:05

when will this end i have to think longterm i have to think longterm i'll make it

2026-10-25 23:04

i spent 2 days regulating my emotions around the feeling in my chest holy fucking shit i'm so schizo i got work done n everything but wtf man

2026-10-25 23:03

im so tired

2026-10-25 23:01

i don’t actually do this except sometimes

2026-10-22 21:18

do you guys also ask the voices in your head if they’re real while monitoring how your chest feels for real time feedback or is that just me

2026-10-22 21:18

yo that last tweet was too much it makes me sound like a psych ward patient noo

2026-10-22 03:01

"oh no, the anger is rising, quick, put on bladee before you start kicking walls and scratching your skin in the work bathroom!"

2026-10-21 21:48

333 to fix my despair mood swing i might need to make bladee part of my healing protocol

2026-10-21 21:40

in life i try my best and end up in madness

2026-10-21 20:34

@merulox → @626seagull

i want mcdonald’s too

2026-10-20 03:33

blame my schizo genes

2026-10-19 00:33

i don't know that my entire digital footprint give enough of an idea of what it's like in my mind not @merulox, not @uuu222942, not my lastfm scrobbles, not my 5 year old local diary, not my inner monologues, not my body language, not my eye contact, not my work/building history

2026-10-19 00:33

feeling like dexter in my laboratory

2026-10-19 00:15

i wish life had a bidirectional progress bar with passive drain

2026-10-12 23:10

i've been all-in on online money for a year now, hopping from one unstable working environment to another. when is this going to end when is it going to end overly degrading language compared to the far-from-negligible progress I've made, but fuck i'm so sick of this

2026-10-12 23:06

@merulox → @merulox

i have partial pipelines built in AI Data Brokering AI Marketing/Growth Agency Crypto Launchpads Crypto copytrading Quant Trading Amazon Books Roblox Clothes Mobile App Development Automated Content & Clipping Systemic Self-Improvement All missing their first revenue cycle

2026-10-12 23:06

the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clock is ticking the clo

2026-10-12 22:43

in my own words from back then i was seeing patterns everywhere

2026-10-11 00:38

looking back i think i went through psychosis this winter. It was hard to spot because it was deep-woven in systemic frameworks and philosophies, far from the full-on delusions you see online, so i reasoned it down to simple hypomanic states but i think i was actually going crazy

2026-10-11 00:22

FAKEMINK

2026-09-08 04:47

hehe

2026-08-05 15:41

THE FUTURE IS NOW

2026-08-05 12:18

when i was younger all i wished for was to live in fantasy, i thought that in another more exciting world, i would try harder and be great now I know enough to understand that this world has all the fantasy and game theory elements i've ever wished for, yet I still move so slow

2026-08-05 12:18

i think i'm literally about to hack the matrix i might be sitting on actual gold. i'll know more in a day

2026-08-04 21:05

i spend all day waiting for the moonlight

2026-08-04 18:51

jus me and my luck, this time it’s my alternator. 2nd one to fail this year 2 days off work i better lock the fuck in on these cold dials

2026-08-03 19:41

car won’t start yay, on pace to keep up my 2x road assistance/week rate

2026-08-03 17:34

there’s levels to this shit

2026-08-01 11:19

i miss being so cognitively dissonant that I could waste time guiltlessly. Now it feels like i know too much to live a normal life. I’d rather die. And the normal life always felt like a depressing chore anyways. I’d rather be depressed while i stack wealth.

2026-07-26 18:35

@merulox → @merulox

And i’m not blind to the teachings of buddha and they help me stay grounded and move forward, but i’m an existentialist egoist narcissist and i want literally everything there is in this world. Raw mindful existence as buddha preaches is overrated and void of meaning anyways.

2026-07-26 18:35

the lower class psychic curse

2026-07-26 18:29

had i not had all these limiting beliefs when i was younger i would already have a million dollar portfolio by now, i’d… i feel so behind man. 1m$ to run kimi locally. and that’s like the starting point i should be stepping on right right now just to be able to build alongside

2026-07-26 18:28

@merulox → @merulox

the frontier. i don’t want a yacht, i don’t want a super car, i want my empire and i want it now, but there’s 15 year old motherfuckers who are already where i need to be, and keep compounding their net worth explosively while i’m still in the trenches this is so stupid

2026-07-26 18:28

running out of time, always running out of time, running out of money, always running out of money i need to join a founder house or something

2026-07-26 18:21

@merulox → @merulox

i don’t want to knock doors for those motherfuckers any more it’s such a waste of time. Why do i have to waste time like this while there’s people who started around the same time i did who are already earning compound interest on their 6 digit portfolios where tf did i go wrong

2026-07-26 18:21

@merulox → @merulox

why am i not a higher achiever? why am i still here? this is so stupid. I thought i was better than this

2026-07-26 18:21

@merulox

this fucking bitch at my family doctor clinic never called me back. she called me during a work meeting and i told her to call me back in 20 min she never did. that fucking whore. after 2 months of waiting. online private clinic route it is

@merulox → @merulox

list of things i want to be able to afford asap -500$/mo of frontier model subscriptions -500$/mo of gas -500$/mo of orthodontic treatment -5k$/mo of gpu -200$/mo of supplements -100$/mo hair loss prevention -1k$/mo for tats -500$/mo for courses & skill acquisition nice car

2026-07-26 18:16

@merulox

this fucking bitch at my family doctor clinic never called me back. she called me during a work meeting and i told her to call me back in 20 min she never did. that fucking whore. after 2 months of waiting. online private clinic route it is

@merulox → @merulox

this list sucks and there’s more if i just had 1k$/mo i could stresslessly put into AI and no job-induced time constraints istg i could make it if i just had 30k$ to buy gpu i’d never work another day in my life

2026-07-26 18:16

i either obsess over getting rich or live on minimum effort smoking weed til i find the energy to kill myself for me, there’s no path forward except greatness or destruction i either become great or kill myself

2026-07-26 18:07

the upcoming week will be a very fucking shitty one from every side insanely hot weather, failed to cold dial 600 businesses this weekend as i’d hoped, 0 commission money on my next pay, if i can make 500$ from $cate i guess it’d make it a little bit better

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

fuck this man i’ve been doing everything man d2d sales job, Foundermaxxing, investmentmaxxing, some memecoin trading, roi-optimized learning, skill acquisition only times i’m not moving forward are when i’m too slumped up to get up, when i nod off and im still broke and alone

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

i come back from knocking doors and hop on the pc without wasting a breath to keep building, day after day, and here i am still in the depths of the trenches police tickets nullifying weeks of commissions, depression nullifying diet-fueled, energy-levels optimization

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

asshole cops turning me genuinely sociopathic Walking a tight rope between greatness and suicidal ideation-induced sabotage. Walking a fine line between greatness and jail time from impulsivity-induced self-destructive tendencies

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

limiting beliefs and subconscious fears surely keeping me stuck in place. There was no good reason not to dial more businesses this weekend… Besides the fact that my mom canceled her trip. I hate it when she is around.

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

getting attention from all the wrong people istg. why are you the one texting me back? why are you the one giving me attention and the time of the day? you’re not the one i want, nor should you be trying to get closer to me

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

therapy is for losers, soon enough i swear to god the compounding will reach a qualitative transition and it will look like overnight success once i have money i won’t be depressed again once i have ai datacenters working for me i will never return to the trenches

2026-07-26 18:04

@merulox → @merulox

once i have ai systems everywhere in my environment i will never be stupid or miss out on high-leverage moves again once i have just 2k$/mo of passive income i will be able to build 16hours/day fuck this job

2026-07-26 18:04

I will buy claude max thanks to $CATE

2026-07-26 15:59

absolutely cooked

2026-07-25 11:55

@merulox → @merulox

i have no impulse control

2026-07-25 11:55

@merulox → @merulox

you already know i'm buying claude max as well just to keep going at the same pace

2026-07-25 11:56

how do i keep running out of ram bruh i have 32gb and warnings when i get low yet i still managed to let my pc freeze while i had 5 builders doing important architectural work fml

2026-07-24 22:10

http://omp.sh + sol 5.6 is heaven on earth holy shit

2026-07-24 12:31

idk if i want to go hang out with my friends this weekend or stay here and grind. it's decisions like these that really compound longterm in both my output and decision-making habits

2026-07-24 10:20

@merulox → @merulox

there's hangouts waiting for me in 2 different towns but ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2026-07-24 10:21

which way?

2026-07-24 09:55

@merulox → @merulox

both is good

2026-07-24 09:56

@ccdoulovemee

@merulox codex

@merulox → @ccdoulovemee

yeah that’s what i went for. sol 5.6 is amazing

2026-07-24 10:01

my father has an adhd-perfected garage he built at the expense of our health and finances, i will leave behind an adhd-perfected dynasty on all spheres of the human existence

2026-07-24 09:53

@merulox → @merulox

"leave behind" assumes I will die lol

2026-07-24 09:53

my children will be cybergenetically perfected, as i will. I need to create a dynasty but I'm so, so, so, so, soooo far behind right now it's not even funny.

2026-07-24 09:49

i'm going to start orthodontic treatment very soon and it will be my reason to quit cigarettes i dont want that generic straight teeth, gap-filled, no-canines, too symmetric soulless smile. i'm going to research the best clinics and protocols and craft my face from the bottom up

2026-07-24 09:32

@merulox → @merulox

bro once passive income hits i swear i will be an actual vampire. perfect diet, perfect sleep, trackers for everything, away from the sun, perfect supplements, frontier drug research, perfect body, perfect warehouse home, perfect everything man i need money i need that shit now

2026-07-24 09:44

@astarinthesea_

should i switch to linux

@merulox → @astarinthesea_

si do it now, you will look back in a year and be so happy you did

2026-07-22 23:10

running kimi k3 locally would cost around a million dollars of gpu holy shit i am so far behind

2026-07-22 23:00

one second i’m on top of the world the next i’m 2 breaths away from sticking my fingers down my throat and pulling my organs out

2026-07-22 19:37

@merulox → @merulox

this is why i should start drinking and smoking on the job it makes perfect sense you see

2026-07-22 19:39

i can’t with these retarded motherfuckers sales isnt for me money isn’t for me youll find me passed out on the sidewalk smoking meth and shooting up fuck this world fuck these senile fucks i need to close my first clients this weekend or i might actually go insane from this job

2026-07-22 19:31

@merulox → @merulox

senile fucks actual retard there’s no reasoning to be had with these uneducated retards. retards retards actual fucking retards get me out of here

2026-07-22 19:33

@merulox → @merulox

fucked my throat up yelling my car like a tweaker

2026-07-22 19:35

wait i'm retarded codex removed daily limits and i've been burning through my weekly limit thinking oh man this is great codex has become so token-efficient and now i'm about to run out until the 28th

2026-07-21 21:20

http://omp.sh is amazing

2026-07-21 20:49

i don’t really waste much time anymore so i know i’ll catch up on everything i’ve ever wanted to be, but i could’ve been so much more by now

2026-07-21 01:37

disappointed in my 12 year old self for only ever being a linux twm larper and never learning red teamer hacking, never grinding leetcode, or learning software engineering. Now the time investment isn’t really worth it when you could be building with AI instead

2026-07-21 01:36

@merulox → @merulox

coding is now obsolete and i didn’t ride the learn coding wave back when it was still relevant. i should’ve been a rust shill autist or something. Maybe once my financial future is assured then i’ll learn coding, but besides learning it as an art form, what’s the point now?

2026-07-21 01:36

@merulox → @merulox

technical understanding is still precious, i know, but not as worthwhile as spending your time building projects that bring revenue and achieve outcomes at 50x the speed

2026-07-21 01:36

or maybe since we code in natural language now, i should make the switch to stenography

2026-07-20 02:35

oh, and if i'm going to be switching keyboards, then i might as well switch away from colemak-dh to the new frontier keyboard layouts oh no

2026-07-20 02:19

i thought id made peace with never optimizing my keyboard&keyboard nav again, but i've been spending a lot of time on monkeytype recently n now that im about to make real money i wanna get this bad boy losing zsa's oryx configurator used put me off, but with ai itll be ez2learn

2026-07-20 01:57

can't sit still i forever go crazy

2026-07-18 18:24

i didn't lock in but i hit 200wpm on monkeytype hell yeah

2026-07-18 14:02

i’m not nearly obsessed enough

2026-07-18 12:20

starting on the 24th i'm going to run ads for the services we sell even though it's against the company tos lmao idgaf

2026-07-17 21:05

woah it got reflected back to me

2026-07-17 20:49

why did i crash out on main

2026-07-17 20:46

need me a kim wexler

2026-07-17 20:01

the grass is always greener on the other side because i keep shitting and pissing on mine but that’s okay

2026-07-17 19:56

“everybody is just equally as complex within their own internal worlds and belief systems” yeah i’m never using that line again. how stupid was I? My map is so much better than yours, senile idiots. i can’t wait to move somewhere where i’m the stupidest person in the room

2026-07-17 19:46

oh and everything is so fucking ugly over here i need neon lights and the city life get me out of here get me out of here i need to lock in this weekend

2026-07-17 19:40

i just suck man

2026-07-17 19:38

if these people hadn’t lived lives full of cope and minimization then i wouldn’t have such a hard time selling to them because they wouldn’t be retarded with their money and would show some amount of rationality and game theory. istg quebec is an uneducated shithole

2026-07-17 19:38

@merulox → @merulox

that lives off completely nonsensical, irrational, entitled christian and redneck values yeah go back to your dinner, beer-belly fatso senile senior and tell your kids how you’re better than everyone while you keep pissing out money from everywhere

2026-07-17 19:38

jobs are a fucking scam how the fuck do these people make it to 60 watching the people around them win over and over from good positioning and choices, yet keep to their miserable lives, like do they even have a soul? i have no choice but to be rich because i would kms otherwise

2026-07-17 19:33

@merulox → @merulox

how the fuck could you live with a normal life? the amount of coping required to be content with a normal job when there’s money to be made everywhere. Every job and every position in the world teaches you where the leverage points are at. stagnation would literally kill me.

2026-07-17 19:33

@merulox → @merulox

money doesn’t buy happiness, but you sure fucking wish you won the lottery. the average person only needs a million to live comfortably off interest. there is literally no excuse not to make a million in your 20-30s, not in 2026

2026-07-17 19:33

pass me the blunt oh wait i’m OUT i need to hit revenue ASAP i need to leave this job and i only want to speak to qualified leads from now on, none of these retarded quebecs people, but fuck i need to master the shitfuck retard leads before i move on to the next step, ideally

2026-07-17 19:06

sales reps should be legally allowed to beat up senile retards

2026-07-17 18:59

get me out of this country get me out of this fucking planet please i’m about to fucking drown over here, bullshit every fucking where i look bullshit here bullshit there bullshit everywhere

2026-07-17 18:58

these motherfuckers are so fucking retarded i can’t with this retarded country of uneducated retards retards every fucking where retards everywhere i fucking look guess i’m the retard fuck these people fuck this culture

2026-07-17 18:56

can’t wait to try out kimi

2026-07-17 18:01

got the crib to myself this weekend hell yeah i will get drunk and regret it deeply the morning after, just like last time really hate the effect alcohol has on your body, aesthetically speaking, but what else do I have right now

2026-07-17 18:00

@usr_bin_roygbiv

hey guys new to sf. just got herpes agent setup, who should I fellate first?

@merulox → @usr_bin_roygbiv

caleb

2026-07-17 14:14

this job is so fucking silly wdym we only get 100 doors/week and have to keep knocking on the same ones until they reply… this is so inefficient. can’t wait to be doing shit my own way for my own business i’ll try to get some cold calls in this weekend for my agency and maybe

2026-07-17 14:13

@merulox → @merulox

set up a product or service that i can sell in d2d, so that i’m not wasting my efforts for (great) yet one-off commissions

2026-07-17 14:13

i missed weed all i need is 2-3 puffs now lol it’s great

2026-07-15 23:04

don’t pathologist your emotions or you will end up like me

2026-07-15 23:04

@merulox → @merulox

but i will be a billionaire so maybe you should learn to pathologize your emotions tacticfully

2026-07-15 23:04

swinging towards the skies bursting to the stars trying to feel that ever fleeting sense of freedom.. or maybe replaying the same sensory experience over and over like a little autist

2026-07-15 23:02

most nights i walk to this small nearby park dressed in all black and swing like a little autist for 20 minutes while i smoke cigarettes and then walk back home what is there to hate about merulox

2026-07-15 22:53

@solo_levelingx

i decided to stop capitalizing things i write because its a fucking WASTE OF TIME as a NEET millionaire i dont have time for this shit

@merulox → @solo_levelingx

why so much intensity lol this is a mental milestone everybody went through a while ago, NEET MILLIONAIRE

2026-07-06 14:04

what an ugly town i live in

2026-07-06 14:00

@merulox → @merulox

i fucking hate this country i can’t wait to be out of here

2026-07-06 14:00

bullshit everywhere i look so much fucking bullshit

2026-07-06 11:20

thank god i was born in 2007

2026-07-05 17:12

once i have money i will become a perfectly optimized, aesthetically crafted longevity vampire just like bryan

2026-07-05 17:10

@merulox → @merulox

it starts whenever i get my new crib, and i can't wait to be done with this job so i can stay away from the sun

2026-07-05 17:11

us in 60 years

2026-07-05 16:57

sometimes i wonder if i should start making structured posts about the things i build, engineered for engagement… but i have another twitter account that i’m preparing for that purpose and merulox should stay organic for now

2026-07-04 15:44

i would like it if porn bots would stop liking my tweets i do not appreciate the fake dopamine rush

2026-07-04 14:11

@merulox → @merulox

it's my fault for paying attention

2026-07-04 14:11

why is it never enough coffee here cigarette there hey maybe a shot of vodka'll get me straight wait hold on let me get up and grab an apple. ugh, i feel so empty. okay let's go for another cigarette. ugh i'm tired of this playlist let's put on something else. oohh lyrics lyrics

2026-07-04 14:09

@merulox → @merulox

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaa it's ok one step at a time in 2 paychecks if my family doctor hasn't gotten back to me, i'll pay an online clinic to prescribe me meds

2026-07-04 14:09

been browsing through my teenage weeb music library but i can't listen to most of this stuff anymore :/

2026-07-04 12:45

@merulox → @merulox

well, 80% of it is fluff I downloaded out of compulsive archiving, but I'm still very attached to the core of it the watamote osts especially hit me hard today. I hadn't listened to them in probably years now.. they made me feel very nostalgic man

2026-07-04 12:51

perks of having a hot mom who dates rich guys is getting to talk to new millionaires like once or twice a week

2026-07-04 10:20

@merulox → @merulox

this one had a 9 digit portfolio

2026-07-04 10:21

@merulox → @merulox

and then i sit back down to my claude&codex session limit messages it ends next week. next week, i'll buy the max plans of both (if i'm paid for the week i took off because of my license suspension, otherwise i might have to push it off by another payday)

2026-07-04 10:28

i received 30k right now i think i would never have to work another day in my life bleh the early phase of wealth accumulation is so mid

2026-07-03 11:46

@wanted4mogging

took my first solid shit in two months bruh my asshole isn’t used to this 🥀 is this what being prison rареd feels like

@merulox → @wanted4mogging

nice

2026-07-03 11:43

claude usage limits are a laughingstock holy shit fuck this shit n i cant even complain cause we're overdelivered on our money with these frontier models but fuck

2026-07-03 11:42

or maybe i just need to start reading on my kobo in my bed again, where i can't be distracted, rather than on my computer where i'm ono workspace switch or new-tab away from getting distracted

2026-07-02 23:53

or maybe i just need to start reading in my bed again, where i can't be distracted, rather than on my computer where i'm on workspace switch or new-tab away from getting distracted

2026-07-02 23:48

how can you guys read longform content without it feeling like a waste of time? reading books -even learning resources- feels like a waste of time. Reading articles, scientific studies, rationalist dialogues, papers... it all feels like a waste of time compared to building.

2026-07-02 23:39

@merulox → @merulox

It feels like there's nothing, but actively building towards established goals that makes sense. I can't bring myself to spend hours reading a book on fundamentals, I can't bring myself to sit through math theory, I can't bring myself to do anything but build.

2026-07-02 23:39

@merulox → @merulox

college also felt like a huge waste of time. and I know this is really bad, especially since those fundamentals are the one thing I keep coming back to wishing I had, but I can hardly ever work towards them. But even rationally, it's hard to see value in them. It feels like

2026-07-02 23:39

@merulox → @merulox

leveraging the collective consciousness' current meta-knowledge and tools is just the more effective protocol for learning and getting up to speed on anything, but I know it isn't and I'm just a skiddie vibecoder. But do I really need to sit through programming language books

2026-07-02 23:39

@merulox → @merulox

and the mathematical foundations of all of these concepts? aren't we so up the stack by now, that none of these matter? Won't I be more ready for the future by simply learning on the go with the best tools available? Won't my competency stack be more relevant?

2026-07-02 23:39

@lol222hai

my family left and my dad started sending me mysterious contacts and telling me to contact them if the “worst case scenario” occurs and they will know “what needs to be done” ???

@lol222hai

they have left me by myself before and hes never mentioned any of this previously…

@merulox → @lol222hai

this reads like something out of a movie

2026-07-02 16:28

how does this work daytrading is so not my niche i'll js invest passively n go back to building and learning tech

2026-07-02 16:06

@merulox → @merulox

it's just calculated risk upon calculated risk upon calculated risk i would much rather build systems that compound for me, even though a daytrading skillset is one such system, but wtv. businesses first, daytrading to have fun once i have money ugh theres so much that i want 2do

2026-07-02 16:06

@merulox → @merulox

i think i have a brain that'd enjoy daytrading if i was good at it, which i would become, but... ugh, I just need to focus on one thing and one thing only, and it won't be risk management. that's for sure. not while I'm drowning.

2026-07-02 16:06

@merulox → @merulox

but... having tradingview open and paper trading passively in the background while i work on my other shit might not be a bad idea, just to build momentum

2026-07-02 16:11

@Polymarket

JUST IN: Scientists reveal they have built a synthetic cell from scratch that can feed, grow, & replicate.

@BeSovereign_1

@Polymarket AND WHY THE FCK WOULD THEY DO THAT?! JUST BECAUSE THOSE ASSHOLES CAN, THAT DOESN'T MEAN THEY SHOULD

@merulox → @BeSovereign_1

this post and your bio are cognitively dissonant

2026-07-01 19:21

tired of being unable to keep up with /g/, tired of being a skiddie poser, tired of not understanding infra, tired of being unable to DDOS people who piss me off, tired of having an unsecure vibecoded website, so i'm finally going to learn websec and hacking portswigger & hacker1

2026-07-01 16:38

@merulox → @ilovesheep2882

tell me i'm wrong

2026-07-01 15:15

@merulox → @ilovesheep2882

consistency, authenticity, and not catering to external sight

2026-07-01 14:58

@merulox → @merulox

the latter might be hard to understand for the tiktokpilled foids us guys we have to keep slowly grinding to make it out of the small account trenches see, i could optimize for reach and engineer funny vagueposts and an enigmatic persona, but that stuff's not for my merulox acc

2026-07-01 15:05

@litteralyme0

when ur S-tier friend group wants to hang out but you already made plans with ur C-tier friend group

@AstroFox_Dev

@litteralyme0 People putting their friends in tierlist are the worst people i can imagine.

@merulox → @AstroFox_Dev

okay, then how would you resolve the same conflict? Strip away tierlists. You have 2 separate friend groups who want to hang out. Depending on your pick there's definitely a winner and a loser. Aren't you still ranking your friendgroups, just through more abstract metrics?

2026-06-30 21:08

@litteralyme0

when ur S-tier friend group wants to hang out but you already made plans with ur C-tier friend group

@AstroFox_Dev

@litteralyme0 People putting their friends in tierlist are the worst people i can imagine.

@merulox → @merulox

Tier lists are just surface level representations of your more complex internal decision-making systems. It's just the narrative of saying "yeah no that friendgroup is full of D-tier losers" that's mean, but nobody really does that shit.

2026-06-30 21:10

these nuts are a lot tougher to crack than homeowners lol js gotta keep dialing man

2026-06-29 15:08

this way ill assuredly get to keep my job and freedom. A restrained work drivers license is a gamble that depends on the mood of the jury, and historically, with sales jobs like mine, they're not too lenient. anyways, starting this cold calling shi for my own business right now

2026-06-29 14:34

imma contest my ticket for 5-6 months while I get my money up, and when the drivers license reaper comes, ill already be gone in nyc where i won't even need a car

2026-06-29 14:33

no word from the coworker who said he’d drive me around for the week and our weekly meeting is in 10min oh well, if i end up having the week off i’m not complaining. more time to build.

2026-06-29 11:50

maybe i should give college another shot once i have financial security... but it's so inefficient man... i'll see depending on how swiftly i can learn by myself once i'm medicated

2026-06-29 10:46

slopfood is dangerous man we got gifted 3 bags of rice cracker pringles and istg they hijacked my hunger signals. I’ve been craving junkfood so much more just because i reintroduced some of that shit to my system once. Spent the last days so much hungrier than usual i hate it.

2026-06-29 10:39

4ch is wrong about AI

2026-06-29 10:15

@merulox → @merulox

they made up their minds too long ago

2026-06-29 10:16

@merulox → @merulox

blockers are actionable gas

2026-06-29 10:34

@merulox → @merulox

blockers are actionable gaps. Truth is an illusion, just keep leveraging the best statistical averages of humanity’s compounded knowledge. You must adapt continuously.

2026-06-29 10:40

@kekius9

Do you think your choices are conscious, or are they just neurobiological reactions?

@merulox → @kekius9

they are reactions at their core, but through meta-awareness and other self-actualization concepts you can definitely shape them over time

2026-06-29 10:08

going to try to work through this bad boy https://courses.csail.mit.edu/6.042/spring18/mcs.pdf… with remnote AI

2026-06-28 22:47

who's read the new welcome to the nhk novel? saw it once on ann in 2021 n completely forgot about it, don't think there's an english release

2026-06-28 20:03

bruh i was in a good ass flow and then my pc just froze was successfully multitasking 3 projects and updating my system. fuck. i’ll wait 20 min before i restart js in case idc. i’d just built a memory monitor too, maybe if i’d actually used it i would’ve seen this coming ugh

2026-06-28 17:48

@merulox → @merulox

means i gotta add warnings

2026-06-28 17:50

@merulox → @merulox

IT’S BACK

2026-06-28 17:50

@Happy2bAIive

imagine hating me instead of loving me

@merulox → @Happy2bAIive

see, me, i would never hate mosten

2026-06-28 16:10

@extroxan

i'm back

@merulox → @extroxan

hi archie

2026-06-28 15:41

@extroxan

i'm back

@extroxan

@merulox hi merulox. i've been vibin' with your latest posts

@merulox → @extroxan

i thought you might

2026-06-28 17:44

it's so hard to stop dreaming and focus on working. really, i can't wait to be medicated. there's so much that I don't know, so much to learn

2026-06-28 14:17

@merulox → @merulox

had i been medicated earlier... I spent my entire teenage years avoiding social media, video games, all sorts of distractions, to build upon my skills, but ended up spending all that time staring at walls, listening to music, daydreaming. I honestly never considered adhd, i just

2026-06-28 14:21

@merulox → @merulox

thought i was a lazy retard. And to think that my father got in the way of me getting diagnosed and prescribed. Resentment serves no purpose, but damn.

2026-06-28 14:22

it's so hard to stop dreaming and focus on working. really, i can't wait to be medicated. aah, there's so much that I don't know

2026-06-28 14:17

when will I escape the earth? How many decades before space exploration is commoditized? Will I be among the pioneers? One of my clones, perhaps?

2026-06-28 14:14

When will I be unrestrained by wealth? When will the planet become my playground? when will I be able to discard my body? when will I reach omnipresence? omniscience? when will I have an army of digital clones? will I reach eternal life?

2026-06-28 14:12

Right now is such a pivotal moment in history. I know all moments are, actually, and that's why I can feel hopeful still. I just wish I could be progressing quicker.

2026-06-28 14:02

Every wasted moment stings. I don't feel too much guilt because it gets in the way, but I can't feel content if I'm not building-- I've created such a lifestyle. Yet, I get distracted so much when I try to build. Really hoping Vyvanse or whatever I get prescribed does the trick.

2026-06-28 14:01

@merulox

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZSzRShMkGQ&time_continue=104&embeds_referring_euri=https%3A%2F%2Fforums.mangadex.org%2F

@merulox → @merulox

i miss drowning in fantasy. better times.

2026-06-28 13:51

@merulox

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZSzRShMkGQ&time_continue=104&embeds_referring_euri=https%3A%2F%2Fforums.mangadex.org%2F

@merulox → @merulox

now it's money this money that, build this build that, can't have fun now. no choice but to move on, gotta use my time sparingly i need wealth and empires to live the fantasy

2026-06-28 13:53

@merulox

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZSzRShMkGQ&time_continue=104&embeds_referring_euri=https%3A%2F%2Fforums.mangadex.org%2F

@merulox → @merulox

when will i be able to roam the world unhindered? how many decades before i can merge my consciousness into systems?

2026-06-28 13:54

not enough people have lastfms

2026-06-28 13:03

has claude gotten much better at compressing conversations whenever it finds convenient opportunities to? this is sick man

2026-06-26 12:02

all i have, my mind all i have, my computer skills all i lack, technical skills or recognized qualifications anyways, i'll just keep working on my digital agency. Business, vision, and ambition is all I have. SYNTRA is on hold for now.

2026-06-26 11:11

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuaak i want to book a one-way flight to sf or nyc and join a founder house i need to stake it all i've lost it all bitches money freedom safety friends it's all gone

2026-06-26 11:09

@merulox → @merulox

i know i'll make it big, but fuck

2026-06-26 11:09

first internet dollar by the end of the day man it has to happen

2026-06-26 09:43

lost* today, i made -872$ how’s that for a day 3

2026-06-26 09:24

got my driving license suspended

2026-06-26 09:08

eat shit old fucking rich geezer suck my cock fucking bastard

2026-06-26 08:21

gotta wake up at 6am tmr n drive 40min to meet a client at 8. bleh. least i’m 90% sure to close this one, and i think he was signing up for 3 products so it should be pretty neat, money wise. i’ll nap after the meeting or something.

2026-06-25 23:29

been thinking about face revealing on merulox but theres not much point to. I’ve lost all my longterm mutuals to the passage of time and deleting/recreating my accounts. But that’s irrelevant to the dilemma- don’t know why i’m mentioning it. Big circle or not, there’s not much to

2026-06-25 23:21

@merulox → @merulox

besides short-lived novelty followed by regret and shame

2026-06-25 23:21

you’re fucking kidding me my first paywindow is delayed by 2 weeks. i’ll only get my first pay in 2 more weeks. dude you can’t fucking do this to me holy shit bro i might genuinely go insane i was supposed to pay the rent i’m 3 weeks behind on with this i was supposed to

2026-06-25 21:52

@merulox → @merulox

pay a court-ordered ticket whose deadline is in a week (before it compounds) i was supposed to renew claude code and all of my online hustle machinery i was supposed to pay the gas that lets me work i was supposed to pay the trip to move over my stuff from my last apartment

2026-06-25 21:52

@merulox → @merulox

i was supposed to pay my brother back i was supposed to be able to afford my 2.56$ ‘baguette & carb water’ daily job meals by myself i was supposed to resume paying my 3 months overdue credit card i was supposed to pay back friends for cigs

2026-06-25 21:52

@merulox → @merulox

2 more weeks of this bullshit? 2 more weeks living on edge, on borrowed 20$ bills for gas? 2 more weeks of being unable to build on my biggest online projects? 2 more weeks of having no freedom? 2 more weeks of this much stress?

2026-06-25 21:52

@merulox → @merulox

i was supposed to get between 900-1400$ now that shitty first pay is only coming in 2 more weeks, and the pay after that one will be my first huge pay. probably between 2-3k.

2026-06-25 21:52

@merulox → @merulox

what fucking schemer boy bro we're retarded merulox is such an idiot

2026-06-25 21:59

@merulox → @merulox

such a silly fucking mistake man. and of course i'll ask for an advance on my pay, but that's still more. fucking. borrowing. I'm SICK OF BORROWING I'M SO FUCKING SICK OF IT

2026-06-25 22:00

@merulox → @merulox

NEVER AGAIN WILL I FEEL THIS POWERLESS NEVER FUCKING AGAIN

2026-06-25 22:00

@merulox → @merulox

i don't deserve to be mad for anything ever at all

2026-06-25 22:10

@merulox → @merulox

not when this very anger was pre-engineered by old me to drive me to pursue better. wtf am i talking about now, even though it's all true. see this is why i cant talk

2026-06-25 22:11

my first 2 confirmed sales today (unless they cancel before installation, which is out of my control) today, i made about 320$ loooooooooooooooooooooooooool

2026-06-25 20:05

@merulox → @merulox

how’s that for a day 2, imaginary haters

2026-06-25 20:07

@SethAbramson

Just saw this image going around:

@merulox → @SethAbramson

wow. this graph fails to calculate the approximate death impact of every human being with the power to acquire and distribute wealth, that chooses not to do so.

2026-06-25 17:36

@SethAbramson

Just saw this image going around:

@Daniels_Prom

@merulox @SethAbramson Well Elon is there

@merulox → @Daniels_Prom

i would also have a kill count greater than one within that chart

2026-06-25 20:35

it’s so fucking hot man and it’ll only get worse next week fuck i need to hit online revenue ASAP bro i can’t keep doing this shit i’m not built for employment holy shit anyways, booked another sale this afternoon so +90$ +base, and it’ll cool down in the evening but still man

2026-06-25 15:44

@dmoonlives

There is absolutely no reason for you, as a man, to have normie social media with your face and name attached to it. All this does is allow people to dox you and ruin your life for having the wrong opinion.

@merulox → @dmoonlives

what’s so bad about this? you’re framing it like it’s the end of the world. boohoo people know i have weird takes and know who i am?? i love anonymity and having various identities, but how does having your name and face up on social media concretely impact your life? just fear.

2026-06-25 10:24

i should probably man up and go live at my fathers for a bit when i can. he has enough gpu to deploy a small—scale AI data-center (10s of 1080s from 2020 mining rigs, and a couple of 3090s) i could set it up, hook it to my aperture, and dip heat is the issue though

2026-06-24 13:51

@merulox → @merulox

i’d have to pay him back for the cost of electricity and generated heat quickly

2026-06-24 13:51

eventually need need a solid infra to sync kobo, calibre, and my iphone library

2026-06-24 13:36

@kizukuriii

Why is every self-described anime fan I talk to irl always a fan of normieslop. Do Lain/Texhnolyze/LoGH/etc elitists not exist in real life or something

@merulox → @kizukuriii

LoGH elitists still exist in 2026?

2026-06-24 13:34

why is my reading speed so slow ugh i hate this

2026-06-24 12:44

@merulox → @merulox

im marginmaxxing, scanning maxxing, everything, but I just feel so sluggish

2026-06-24 12:44

@merulox → @merulox

remember there was this girl in my high school who'd read like, 2, 200-page novels per 1.5hr class i know the ability exists

2026-06-24 12:49

@merulox → @merulox

I know novels and technical books aren't the same though

2026-06-24 12:49

a calibre notebooklm/ai-integration plugin would be nice but very far from needed or optimal

2026-06-24 12:33

this oughta kickstart me

2026-06-24 12:31

@Ekaeoq

The amount of work I'm able to prompt with Codex is nothing short of a miracle... Programming gods and gpu gods, thank you once more.

@merulox → @Ekaeoq

so cool uooohh i need a tenting kid for my moonlander and i need a proper standing desk bjshsshsh

2026-06-24 12:24

ten million ants

2026-06-24 12:20

@zanoga

Finally finished building my AI datacenter! 🚀 32x3090s across 4 servers (8 GPUs each), all connected over InfiniBand. The whole setup is solar-powered with a massive battery bank and generator backup. More technical details and benchmarks coming soon.

@merulox → @zanoga

sick

2026-06-24 11:29

oh and i’ll hop on this shit and the rest of the sphere asap

2026-06-24 11:11

3 scheduled meetings in my first day lmaoooo if they go as planned that’s around 270$ (remunerated within 2-4 weeks) + base salary life is like a book i swear to god tomorrow i get to renew claude

2026-06-24 11:09

act coo

2026-06-24 11:05

i don't understand all my friends who still play video games... clearly they haven't built with claude code yet

2026-06-23 21:57

the uncertainty makes my heart weak

2026-06-23 21:53

flat tire lol

2026-06-23 13:15

lmaooo i already got my first client pretty much signed up and I haven't knocked on a single door got a phone call this morning to my work phone number from a prospective client. They were expecting a retired worker, but I just picked the case right back up. :P :P :P

2026-06-23 10:32

@merulox → @merulox

+90$ cashing

2026-06-23 10:32

@merulox → @merulox

I could tell by their voice tone that I have this one in the bag

2026-06-23 10:34

3 days left...

2026-06-23 10:26

lol i think i'll eventually buy a coffin bed not only are they cool as shit, it'll help my sleep posture, prevent bedrotting, and again, be cool as shit

2026-06-23 10:12

@merulox → @merulox

unless moving around in your sleep is actually a healthy subconscious process, same way that constantly shifting your posture instead of optimizing for "perfect" posture, is

2026-06-23 10:14

merulox's warehouse is going to be so cool

2026-06-23 09:52

merulox is full of love

2026-06-23 00:53

researchers, scientists, builders, innovators, are updating the simulation every day

2026-06-23 00:49

@merulox → @merulox

long live the internet, long live communication, long live entanglement, long live technology, long live reality. The world hasn’t ever compounded this quickly. The simulation hasn’t ever been updated this quickly.

2026-06-23 00:50

if you have doubt in your heart then you’re just not thinking far enough. think in years, in decades, in centuries blackpilling is so retarded, doubt is so retarded, smallness is so retarded i love everybody though, except fuckass retarded pathetic small niggas who do me wrong

2026-06-23 00:45

@merulox → @merulox

mental models are instrumental tools meant to be used pragmatically to manifest desired realities in the physical realm. Why are you blackpilling?

2026-06-23 00:45

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