Writing

what an ugly town i live in

bullshit everywhere i look so much fucking bullshit

thank god i was born in 2007

once i have money i will become a perfectly optimized, aesthetically crafted longevity vampire just like bryan

us in 60 years

sometimes i wonder if i should start making structured posts about the things i build, engineered for engagement… but i have another twitter account that i’m preparing for that purpose and merulox should stay organic for now

i would like it if porn bots would stop liking my tweets i do not appreciate the fake dopamine rush

why is it never enough coffee here cigarette there hey maybe a shot of vodka'll get me straight wait hold on let me get up and grab an apple. ugh, i feel so empty. okay let's go for another cigarette. ugh i'm tired of this playlist let's put on something else. oohh lyrics lyrics

been browsing through my teenage weeb music library but i can't listen to most of this stuff anymore :/

perks of having a hot mom who dates rich guys is getting to talk to new millionaires like once or twice a week

i received 30k right now i think i would never have to work another day in my life bleh the early phase of wealth accumulation is so mid

claude usage limits are a laughingstock holy shit fuck this shit n i cant even complain cause we're overdelivered on our money with these frontier models but fuck

or maybe i just need to start reading on my kobo in my bed again, where i can't be distracted, rather than on my computer where i'm ono workspace switch or new-tab away from getting distracted

or maybe i just need to start reading in my bed again, where i can't be distracted, rather than on my computer where i'm on workspace switch or new-tab away from getting distracted

how can you guys read longform content without it feeling like a waste of time? reading books -even learning resources- feels like a waste of time. Reading articles, scientific studies, rationalist dialogues, papers... it all feels like a waste of time compared to building.

how does this work daytrading is so not my niche i'll js invest passively n go back to building and learning tech

tired of being unable to keep up with /g/, tired of being a skiddie poser, tired of not understanding infra, tired of being unable to DDOS people who piss me off, tired of having an unsecure vibecoded website, so i'm finally going to learn websec and hacking portswigger & hacker1

these nuts are a lot tougher to crack than homeowners lol js gotta keep dialing man

this way ill assuredly get to keep my job and freedom. A restrained work drivers license is a gamble that depends on the mood of the jury, and historically, with sales jobs like mine, they're not too lenient. anyways, starting this cold calling shi for my own business right now

imma contest my ticket for 5-6 months while I get my money up, and when the drivers license reaper comes, ill already be gone in nyc where i won't even need a car

no word from the coworker who said he’d drive me around for the week and our weekly meeting is in 10min oh well, if i end up having the week off i’m not complaining. more time to build.

maybe i should give college another shot once i have financial security... but it's so inefficient man... i'll see depending on how swiftly i can learn by myself once i'm medicated

4ch is wrong about AI

slopfood is dangerous man we got gifted 3 bags of rice cracker pringles and istg they hijacked my hunger signals. I’ve been craving junkfood so much more just because i reintroduced some of that shit to my system once. Spent the last days so much hungrier than usual i hate it.

going to try to work through this bad boy https://courses.csail.mit.edu/6.042/spring18/mcs.pdf… with remnote AI

who's read the new welcome to the nhk novel? saw it once on ann in 2021 n completely forgot about it, don't think there's an english release

bruh i was in a good ass flow and then my pc just froze was successfully multitasking 3 projects and updating my system. fuck. i’ll wait 20 min before i restart js in case idc. i’d just built a memory monitor too, maybe if i’d actually used it i would’ve seen this coming ugh

it's so hard to stop dreaming and focus on working. really, i can't wait to be medicated. there's so much that I don't know, so much to learn

it's so hard to stop dreaming and focus on working. really, i can't wait to be medicated. aah, there's so much that I don't know

when will I escape the earth? How many decades before space exploration is commoditized? Will I be among the pioneers? One of my clones, perhaps?

When will I be unrestrained by wealth? When will the planet become my playground? when will I be able to discard my body? when will I reach omnipresence? omniscience? when will I have an army of digital clones? will I reach eternal life?

Right now is such a pivotal moment in history. I know all moments are, actually, and that's why I can feel hopeful still. I just wish I could be progressing quicker.

Every wasted moment stings. I don't feel too much guilt because it gets in the way, but I can't feel content if I'm not building-- I've created such a lifestyle. Yet, I get distracted so much when I try to build. Really hoping Vyvanse or whatever I get prescribed does the trick.

not enough people have lastfms

has claude gotten much better at compressing conversations whenever it finds convenient opportunities to? this is sick man

all i have, my mind all i have, my computer skills all i lack, technical skills or recognized qualifications anyways, i'll just keep working on my digital agency. Business, vision, and ambition is all I have. SYNTRA is on hold for now.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuaak i want to book a one-way flight to sf or nyc and join a founder house i need to stake it all i've lost it all bitches money freedom safety friends it's all gone

first internet dollar by the end of the day man it has to happen

lost* today, i made -872$ how’s that for a day 3

got my driving license suspended

eat shit old fucking rich geezer suck my cock fucking bastard

gotta wake up at 6am tmr n drive 40min to meet a client at 8. bleh. least i’m 90% sure to close this one, and i think he was signing up for 3 products so it should be pretty neat, money wise. i’ll nap after the meeting or something.

been thinking about face revealing on merulox but theres not much point to. I’ve lost all my longterm mutuals to the passage of time and deleting/recreating my accounts. But that’s irrelevant to the dilemma- don’t know why i’m mentioning it. Big circle or not, there’s not much to

you’re fucking kidding me my first paywindow is delayed by 2 weeks. i’ll only get my first pay in 2 more weeks. dude you can’t fucking do this to me holy shit bro i might genuinely go insane i was supposed to pay the rent i’m 3 weeks behind on with this i was supposed to

my first 2 confirmed sales today (unless they cancel before installation, which is out of my control) today, i made about 320$ loooooooooooooooooooooooooool

it’s so fucking hot man and it’ll only get worse next week fuck i need to hit online revenue ASAP bro i can’t keep doing this shit i’m not built for employment holy shit anyways, booked another sale this afternoon so +90$ +base, and it’ll cool down in the evening but still man

i should probably man up and go live at my fathers for a bit when i can. he has enough gpu to deploy a small—scale AI data-center (10s of 1080s from 2020 mining rigs, and a couple of 3090s) i could set it up, hook it to my aperture, and dip heat is the issue though

eventually need need a solid infra to sync kobo, calibre, and my iphone library

why is my reading speed so slow ugh i hate this

a calibre notebooklm/ai-integration plugin would be nice but very far from needed or optimal

this oughta kickstart me

ten million ants

oh and i’ll hop on this shit and the rest of the sphere asap

3 scheduled meetings in my first day lmaoooo if they go as planned that’s around 270$ (remunerated within 2-4 weeks) + base salary life is like a book i swear to god tomorrow i get to renew claude

act coo

i don't understand all my friends who still play video games... clearly they haven't built with claude code yet

the uncertainty makes my heart weak

flat tire lol

lmaooo i already got my first client pretty much signed up and I haven't knocked on a single door got a phone call this morning to my work phone number from a prospective client. They were expecting a retired worker, but I just picked the case right back up. :P :P :P

3 days left...

lol i think i'll eventually buy a coffin bed not only are they cool as shit, it'll help my sleep posture, prevent bedrotting, and again, be cool as shit

merulox's warehouse is going to be so cool

merulox is full of love

researchers, scientists, builders, innovators, are updating the simulation every day

if you have doubt in your heart then you’re just not thinking far enough. think in years, in decades, in centuries blackpilling is so retarded, doubt is so retarded, smallness is so retarded i love everybody though, except fuckass retarded pathetic small niggas who do me wrong

bjfjfhfkfmfjkfmf f rolling in my bed euphoria visions visions visions visions i live in the future i can’t believe i was born in 2007 this is the greatest blessing of all reality

space exploration is gonna be so cool holy shit

i’m going to become like the story-hungry, empty constellations and higher entities of ORV

i can’t wait to discard my body. i need to live to 2070-2100. maybe and probably earlier. biological aging slowdown and reversal is coming soon too

in just a year i’ll already be unrecognizable

i’m an artist i’m an author i’m a vampire i’m a god just you watch

change my name change my face change my body change my soul change my voice change my skin change my wealth change my mortality change my future what can’t I do?

i’m not taking anyone but you

tomorrow morning i will make it a two-hour long mission to sharpen my prompting skills by watching longform content of high-signal individuals vibecoding, and by prompting gpt to act as a high-level prompting coach

i need to stop tweeting and start writing more. i can’t help but view myself the same way i would view an AI agent; writing cultivates the soul, and through rationality and verbal IQ, i can unlock powerful self-aligned mental models i wouldn’t have otherwise

thank god i was born in an era where reality is this malleable otherwise i would’ve had to kill myself or live a life of cognitively dissonant cope but older eras wouldn’t have shaped me to be like this so this is just evolution running its course

i’m a caterpillar

why is sunscreen still so mid in 2026 doesn’t matter cause i won’t have daytime field jobs after this one and i only go out at night but still

so many cities to explore. the US-era is going to be so fun man

i dont want an apartment in fucking quebec city though i realize how mid this suburb shithole is now … wait. i could probably get transferred to the montreal area through my employer or just sick it out in here until i’ve grown enough to exit my job and move to anywhere bettr

hi

in a year i see myself surrounded by systems

can’t wait to have my own new construction rich aesthetic apartment with perfectly optimized setups, huge ass supplements counter, macronutrients and calorie-perfect regime, merulox-like color schemes everywhere

damn 2 hour lunch i guess mentor left to visit a client personally and still hasn’t come back started my lunch at 17:10, now it’s 18:40 shift ends at 20:00 tomorrow my first day alone wednesday is off we are balling

can’t wait to get into reverse engineering and breaking models

learning feels really weak in our era. What's the point of learning foundations, when systems are self-evolving, and when you can achieve results by settings goals and learning highly relevant information to your builds through LLMs? Learning becomes a downstream of achieving

i really have no clue what the fuck to focus my attention on. I dont want to spend too much time optimizing for wealth, because I dont know how long money will be relevant for. I need to learn all of science EVERYTHING okay step one is 100% passive income. This unlocks time.

i really have no clue what the fuck to focus my attention on. I don't want to spend too much time optimizing for wealth, because I don't know how long money will be relevant for. I need to learn all of science EVERYTHING okay step one is 100% passive income. This unlocks time.

i really have no clue what the fuck to focus my attention on. I don't want to spend too much time optimizing for wealth, because I don't know how money will be relevant for. I need to learn all of science EVERYTHING okay step one is 100% passive income. This unlocks time.

there's so much to learn and i'm so young and so broke and so unfocused aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i need amphetamines i need to microdose psylocybin and i need to spend all my time reading, but also learning all of mathematics, but also building businesses, but also selling

Reverend Insanity, ORV, and LOTM all map different patterns of reality and the future I've read RI twice, ORV up to 70%, and I'm going to start LOTM eventually. They're like this big 3 in my mind, and I can't wait to have read them all

it's fine, and i know you'll love it i haven't focused on anime in years myself, i'm so behind on what's going on today. just been living in my old bubble. btw are you still reading reverend insanity?

NixOS is still the best solution right now. So glad I stumbled into it early on.

my 2021 perfectly keyboard-optimized minimalist i3wm setup lives strong in 2026. i keep seeing all these sick AI hyprland desktops but right now there's really not much point besides eyecandy my geezer i3wm setup stands out more anyways

i need to split my twitter usage across more accounts

i miss my old oomfs and old feed and old tl. wish i’d anonymized my old acc instead of deleting it. the transition from misaki/lain/tomoko/clannad&key/punpun/akunohana/2000s/vns/privs/vents/ to AGI/tech/AI founders/money/startups/research/money/leverage/growth is sad

i live by the mood swings, eat my dick

im switching up on ur ass btw u weird self-serving creature you yes you you’ll never be more than a party prop, like a clown for entertainment

i need to become a sales goat and hit online revenue ASAP, so i can exit that day job and live the lifestyle i want. i swear to god i’m a machine, istg it won’t take long couple of months before i can guiltlessly exit my job, and just a matter of weeks for online revenue

i hate that people who try to resolve the conflict of AI consciousness assume that humans are conscious as a default. Egoistical retards. Of course you can't resolve a condition that doesn't exist materialistically outside of human narratives. Consciousness is learned.

you think they are?

everything is real if you extrapolate far enough this is why i can pursue

you can't be an existentialist and judge people by the way, that makes you a retard. But I can because I view mental models instrumentally from a neutral indifferent observer baseline, and you don't.

give me more leverage give me more synchronicity give me more grandeur i want to feel i want to feel let the meditation create chaos watch me dismiss my thoughts at the speed of light until my mind becomes a randomness generator

i miss sitting on my old stoner balcony and deepstaring into nothingness for hours I need start meditating again I miss weed I miss mushrooms fuck but I'm at a point where no amount of spiritual work will rival just *doing*... Though, right now I can't even build on my highest-

i miss synchronicity, visual effects, soul connection, actionable gut feelings, the universe speaking to me speaking of gut feelings, i can't help but see the connection I felt to the name Lucifer back when I was brainstorming earlier, as something deeper. It was the same kind o

old people LOVE to tell you "with age you realize nobody ever cared" and then proceed to analyze & judge people with just one glance perceptions are real, and they do impact every sphere of your life where success is a criteria. cognitively dissonant idiots.

fuck out the way "Brad"

you wouldn't believe the extent to which I've hated my name ever since I was 5 And when I found out they just copied the name of some random actor from the last movie they'd watched? Fuck that shit I have no respect for the lineage of that fuckass retarded ass senseless name

Yep. Vesper as a first name I'm almost certain of. I'll try to use it in my daily life for a couple of weeks, see how that goes, and then change my name legally. Middle and last names are going to be so much more interesting to pick out because I can be creative and distinct

Ooh Vesper

bro i've been browsing hundreds of potential names with chatgpt, feeding it concepts relevant to my inner world, and istg, the only one that's gotten me excited-and overly so- is Lucifer i'm such a 12 year old edgelord bruh but fuckkk Lucifer??? like, Lucifer bro can you imagine?

oh fuck im fucking dtupid

how long has it been now? 2 years, soon? and other girls are still so ugly, so mundane, so boring, so average, so irrelevant. Nobody can compare. tinder sucks. hinge sucks. girls suck. the mall sucks. the streets suck. everything sucks. hot girls suck. nothing can compare istfg

I fell in love with a bad bitch, told me that she love me too, baby I'm not having it I been riding by my lonely Now that everybody know me But nobody really know me I been running outta homies I jus want this shit to be over, I jus want my girl to be mine

I fear you, I fear you, I fear you I'm always way too self-aware Oh, we could never be together But it's nice to play pretend Just Because You're Paranoid, Doesn't Mean You're Wrong You're so pretty, like a blossom

What's wrong with ya? (What's wrong?) They tryna talk, I'm like "Nah-uh" (Nah-uh) What's wrong with ya? (What's wrong?) Hang up the phone, I'm like "Nah-uh" (Nah-uh) Karma Police Arrest this man He talks in math He buzzes like a fridge He's like a detuned radio

Keep secrets so I couldn't keep her Walk around late nights like a tweaker Fuck once then I turn into a stranger Psychosis, so I'm in danger I love when I see your texts, but you hit my phone and a nigga bone dry. I know that you want a text back but i'm on my own so I won't rep

I can't love if the shits all lust, I can't love if I don't got trust, I think the drugs might fuck me up, I feel my body is fucking up. It's like how am I gonna live at all? Icey Soles that's all I know, fuck what I'm told, yeah You been reaping what you sow, and now it's cold

This is the girl I told that we could have it all, This is the life I made, and I can't come back to fall Back to fall, back to everyone I ever knew at all All of KeepTellingYourselfThat I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T do you know what that means?

But I can't take this paparazzi jeez, it's like the camera's always out and always staring at me And if I say the wrong thing they'll cut my tongue till it bleeds lovefool demo oh wait, and they just leaked it. you think you can figure me out? yeah have fun figure that out

There's this feeling I can't shake, cause I'm too dumb I'm never doing the right thing, so I'm so stuck If you see me in america I might say hi, if you meet me out in Europe I'm a talkative guy smoked a cig on the porch, it doesn't help me at all My flaws burn through my skin l

Is it, or is it not? put my body in a pot. For like 28 days that's like nearly a month If I get famous I'll still wanna die I might come back, when the benz all black, ten racks on my laps, if I don't relapse and I stay strong. I could live forever if I wanted to

I feel defeated, seething, battling my demons Knowing misery loves company Baby have you had enough of me It's a new day baby have you done enough for me Nothing changing Not another day in vain

I'm on the run, I'm on the run, on the run from everyone. I'm on the run, come on and grab your gun. Let's have some fun. I wanted to be real, wanted to be real I'm the winner, but I feel like a victim

I used to wait, in my room, from a single sign from you, said I hate you, cause I knew that you would never love me too I know that I'm not that important to you but to me girl you're so much more than gorgeous, so much more than perfect

Right now I know that I'm not really worth it, if you give me time I could work on it Fuck em though, no I did this all by myself. Matter fact, I ain't ever asked no one for help, and that's when I don't pick up my phone when it ring

I'm in love with a ghost girl Leave me alone, just leave me alone How do you fight the feeling? I'm all on my own, give me some time I be flying bitch Something keeps on telling me, it keeps on telling me, peep, leave it alone, I'm good on my own

I'm a motherfucking schemer boy, I'm a beamer boy, love a girl that don't even fucking need a boy, baby I'm a beamer boy All I know, something ain't right Spark me up a marlboro, to light up my dark world Yeah, fix my face like I ain't scared

I Hung Myself For A Persona I ain't one of y'all just let me rot yeah, I was just with peep in london, still feel like I don't exist at all Fuck this social gathering, I'mma smoke a square out in the fucking hall, yuh This world was never made for me, thankfully I'm trained to s

Welcome to my castle, it's just me and you tonight, I'll be in your dreams everytime that we get high lie lie lie, all you ever do is lie look me in the eyes like the stars in the sky cause we only ever have one conversation a week

I had no one by my side til this pretty young bitch hopped up in my ride. Took her to the crib and I show her how I die every night You do it so right better teach me how. You talk about a feeling I feel it now I know I did a little blow and I never wrote back to you

Change my name, shave my head, tell my friends, that I'm dead But I could be cool too, and you got them dance moves, and I got this vibe, I swear it's perfect to ride to I just wanna lay my head on your chest, so I'm close as it gets, to your heart. We can fall apart, start ov

i know i saw you standing there, top of the street, i know it was you. I was only there, just for a moment, you could feel the tension in the air, it's like a fume Let the stars decide, if I'm gonna live or die Gonna lose my mind, runnin', runnin' through the night

shes so pretty ill make it all about myself and become an asshole fell in love one never been the same bitch left cause i embarrassed her, like every day i be like 1000km blowin dope and remindin' myself i'm the king of the gray, ay

shes so pretty ill become ugly shes so pretty ill become handsome shes so pretty ill pass out on the floor shes so pretty ill become schizo shes so pretty ill make her hate me shes so pretty ill drive everybody away shes so pretty ill become rich shes so pretty ill become broke

shes so pretty ill break my values shes so pretty ill cut everybody off shes so pretty ill cut all feelings shes so pretty ill feel in waves shes so pretty ill disgust her till im all alone

shes so pretty ill kms shes so pretty ill move to another country shes so pretty ill never reach out again shes so pretty ill turn everything upside down shes so pretty ill become a ghost monster shes so pretty ill hide in my layers shes so pretty ill never be found again

shes so pretty i wanna kms

bro how the fuck does this happen started eating these mothers they taste and smell like cardboard m drunk

i need to stop posting useless shit

anyways i manage my energy levels well on this saturday night and i will get drunk as balls

the downsides to my metabolism bother me though. this won't become a stable.

oh it's already 6pm so it barely counts as daydrinking if only had 2 shooters in the afternoon

daydrinking is not a good habit to pickup but i can't even use frontier models rn so for today we are baaaaaallin

mom's date, the one with psycho eyes n weird & performatively nice 'rigid' behavior who was set on making us drink and bought me alcohol to get closer to us, just invited me to the fucking spa when my mom is out of town ion wanna get naked wit u fucknigga he cool tho free alc

i live so far in the future

wtf this is so unusual

man i got a god-like workflow to become a top-seller closerCoach mobile app to simulate beginning-to-end d2d sales conversations -> transcripts recorded on my pc -> transcripts fed to chatGPT for specific pinpointing of all my mistakes and suggestions for alternative phrasings

tuesday my entire life changes

and thus he reappeared no, but this thread was directed to my schizolimerencetuationshipcrush who is perhaps likely to have figured out my twitter account n hasn't been online in a suspici amount of time glad to see u again but i need to start keeping this account professional

deep nostalgia for my teenage tomoko era now it's just some larplarp sahur meme fuck off lain avis are also in the same category but i guess that-- and my curent MAL profile is just the snapshot of otaku culture i'll be stuck in for a while cause i won't make time for it anymore

i want to reach a 100k$/yr pace within my first 2 months the best part about this, is that i have enough self-hatred that I know I will overreact and overcompensate for every failure that I go through. I know I'll grow explosively because I have self-esteem issues

17hours??

been trying chatGPT as a sales coach for the first time, and damn that shit is helpful as fuck, bro... if i do reps every day? no way I won't be hitting 100k+/yr within weeks just from my dayjob lmaoooo

fuck, i just compared my sales intelligence training engine to Lewis Litt's silly pussyboy recorder and now i feel like a chud

my soul is a cult

depression-era friends think they know shit fuck out the way nigga fuckers stuck in place playing the same scripts everyday yeah i'm never stopping time again idfc if it turns out i was psychosed and end up friendless (which isn't empirically possible)

when i was 12 i knew i wanted to spend my life acquiring knowledge. i would think to myself that spending my entire life learning in universities wouldn’t be so bad, and then i realized i couldn’t focus on anything so i let that go. but now here i am

This is the best bubble to be apart of. You think you can escape the consequences of distributed superintelligence? i don’t want to spend my life basking in the downstream breadcrumbs of AGI lmao. i wonder what percentage of the mainstream population realizes what’s to come

To make it in the new era, you will need to mythologize your life.

Excited to see what i’ll be able to do with Fable. What builds, next steps, ideas, projects, will it come up with when i feed it my entire system?

once i have my first pay… Step 1 is claude/codex, then i setup a mic that records my d2d workdays for LLMs ingest and coach me, creating a tight feedback loop. Then it’s hitting revenue on Boreal Numerique and SYNTRA ASAP

nothing that i ever say is true

i need to go all in on the visions and delusions, and forget everything else

i need to move on. it’s over for sure by now. And I’ve never embarrassed myself publicly this bad before. merulox needs to become a serious twitter account, and i can’t ever go back to those who saw everything go down

too tired to work, too tired to sleep, too tired for substances, too tired to stay awake, too tired to read, too tired to do anything but yearn. it’s been a long day though it’s okay

this d2d job is fucking meta man holy shit

hell yeah i'm alone for the weekend and i have tequilla, lunches, and a pack of beer that one of my mom's dates got me to get closer to us. no existential guilt because i have paychecks coming hell yeah, life hasn't been this easy in a while now if ONLY I had claude&codex :(